What I am...

This state of mind;
I can't explain,
as confusion and chaos surround me,
I struggle to keep my sanity.
What stops me from being what I am
I don't know
I have for long been a victim...
a victim of fear and mistrust.
as I battle to move ahead
I can hardly see anything
the wind is delaying me
the rain is blinding me
I then stop and ponder-
when will I reach my station
I don't know