I will run away...

I am ready to run away
will move to rishikesh or haridwar
and become a nun or a saint
this family life is not for me
neither is this world and its tribes
can't suicide no coward am I
so the only option is to run away
Great people have left their homes
in search of enlightenment and have succeeded
why can't I, they too were no super humans
Daily have I to face the same censure
for something I did ages ago
but why tell me now again and again
if I didn't falter as a child
I would have done it now
how is a child suppose to learn
if he never commits a mistake?
then doesn't it become an irony-
the fact that a child can never walk,
if he doesn't fall
Why are we taught something
then made to act against it?
Why why why?
I still haven't got my answer
and I suppose never will.
Because one day I too will be a parent
and then I too will behave this way