Never knew I...

Never knew I

that I had emotions

childhood was fun

not a tear I saw

then teenage passed

I fell in love

and cried incessant

since that day

thought I was 

miserable and weak

but never knew I

that pain proved

I was alive

and this world

and my life

not a lie

Studies

I know I have to study
Yet I don't bother really
Late at night then I start
worry and pick up a fight

Study and don't stress
replies my love in distress
all I can do is shout more
cry and make his ears sore

Nearer get exams
and I hold notes in my arms
day and night non stop
I study and complain on top

My brain says concentrate
yet eyes busy on food plate
or on facebook which I check
Is it a wonder then I depend on luck!

The one I never saw

You left me before I was born
Yet you never deserted me
You stayed in my heart forever
Walked side by side

I can only imagine your face
maybe if you were here
things would have been different
You would have believed in me

I know I can't see you
but feel your presence near
you protect and love me daily
I wish I had known you.

Kaafir

Tumhe inkar hai khuda ke hone se
Namanzur kia tumhe mandir bhi
Bhagwan hai tum mante nai
Per ishq karta hu farmate ho

Jub khuda he nai seene me
Mante ho ye tum
Toh mohabbat hai mujse
Aetebar karu kese mai

An unknown partner

three years it will be
yet I still feel the need
to know you better
to accept that you're mine
I don't believe you are
are you?

we live in the same city
yet in two different worlds
we speak over the phone
but don't see each other
there is the internet
but only if you said yes.

I still yearn to hear your voice
and browse your pictures
I even listen to love songs
I grew my hair for you
you don't even get a haircut
or ever listen to my heart

I miss my friends
they are not with me
I spend the day alone
but I know this
they value my love
why don't you?

An old crush...

I thought of you today again, after so many days...months too  maybe...well honestly I do think of you from time to time when I recollect the good memories we once shared. I know I can't have you because maybe you are not in my destiny but I will remember you like a beautiful dream which couldn't have realized..while you equally know (despite loving me in your own subtle way) that our proximity will never bear the fruits of marriage.

I the ladder

You have started climbing
I will lead you to the top
Yet, you won't know
how many steps more
you still have to go
till you finally get
where you want
because the top floor here
is unfortunately missing
you have to keep constructing
one by one as you climb up
But don't be proud
of your achievements
or plan to rest on your laurels
if I can lead you to the top
I can get you a great fall too.
I don't know if then
Will you lose your life
or break your leg.