But I ain't her, I am who you loved once

You need me when you low
You need me to pay your bills
You need me to clean your trash
You need me when you need love
You need me to raise your kids
But you berate me and not her

She treats you like no one
She abandoned you years ago
She doesnt treat you as her own
She calls you not out of love
She will never stand by you
But to check on her possessions

Yet you side her and not me
Yet you abuse me and not her
Yet you let be and not me
Yet you use me and not her 
Yet you love her and not me
But I aint her I am who you loved - once. 

She was leaving

It was difficult to find her now
Her soul walked further deeper
into another world unknown
Away from where she felt unwanted 

Carcasses of love (extended version)

You are all carcasses of love
I need none of you soulless beings
You're vestige leaves the stench of all that's ever and never have been
And Valium won't suffice to sedate the eternal suffering I endure

Green turns grey while silent tears of mine suffice for your loud mirth
Alas I knew I'd fall prey one day
To your treacherous gambit
For I had created a monster, yet
Only to be replayed ad nauseam

And yet I walked down that path
That led me to my grave
Your sly smile those lips so vile
Shot poison through my vein
Your hypnotic iris the dilated pupil
Triumphed at luring me into oblivion

And there stood I pondering

You laughed and you strolled
Our cares stood trolled
I was left midway, midnight,wondering
My childhood never taught me this
My innocence was my armour once
That now buried deep into the unknown

My shadow said
And my spirit too
Be righteous and you'd walk smoothly through

Now that my path is lost
Now that my dream is burnt
My shadow gone
My spirit's come by far undone

(With inputs from Sarathi Bhattacharya)

Soulmate

In each one of you
I searched a soulmate
And today I realise
My search isn't still over

They yelled, they loved

He yelled at her in doubt
She yelled back in disbelief
Yet both refused to reassure
That they still loved each other

Suicide

Dad said suicide is the biggest crime. Maybe it is and yes, we were all taught that.
But as we grew up i realised there were many aspects to it. One doesn't know the battles others are fighting. I don't agree that is is right but I can't judge it being wrong either. 

I hate you

I hate you more than anything now
I hate your thoughts

I hate when you run across my mind
I hate your photos

I hate thinking about you
I hate your dreams

I hate the words you said
I hate your smile

I hate that you deny your love
I hate you whole

But most I hate myself for still loving you